bye january you were such a curiosity.

I don't understand myself anymore. Time please stop passing me by.
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send me today + wednesday's photos plz 8)
Ugh my left eye hurts, I'm really tired now ._.

Have so much to think about, ugh sucks, should be focusing on studying or something instead, A math E math and Higher chinese giving me a massive headache. ):
k minor tangent: I got B4 for the chinese book test, missed B3 by one mark, yay I think it's good compared to my average c5/6 okay 8)
at least my results are better this year :/

hurr how, ugh I feel so gay.
Begone rampant thoughts.
Gay gay gay gay gay.

Days are getting longer and more wearisome even though time somehow still flies and ughhhhhh the workload increases like............................................

best part is I'm still balding ):

(but there were still some awesome times)

Things don't seem to be working out.
K can't lose faith.
(I'm not Christian btw)

zzzZzzzZZzZZzzzZ stupid thoughts and dreams and emotions and desires and.......

Everything will be alright. We'll all emerge better people.
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I got distracted by facebook for half an hour how. Pet society is adorable. ):
Ugh kill me nao.
Should go learn ting xie but I suddenly once again again again feel very !#$%$^^!#$!@#$@!#%@#!#%^&*^&%^#%$#
uuuuggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
how should I say it :/
I should focus like solely on my studies or something -.-

KILL ME NAOOOOOOOO

K bai ting xie calls.

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Okay I won't give up, at least until .

time is the only thief we cannot get justice against.
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I wasted 4 hours of my life today omg ._.
Haha went chinz howse after that terrorized juniors on the way 8)
yannis I want the photos, haha so sweet the birthday cake hahahahahah jan people own you 8)
K today after school was fun 8)

today we shortlisted the most plausible reasons for my rapid hair loss:
1. Too much MSG. ZzZZzzzZzZZz
2. I don't wash the soap out properly ._.
3. Dove sucks
4. Premature aging
5. I don't wash my hair immediately after swimming ._.

Die liao. K should go wash off the nail polish then learn ting xie. argahgiuaofhdyagisdtsa :/
Yayyyyy dirty dirty games on friday 8))

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SPASM PLZZZZZZZ SO CHIO :O
I hope Sg will have it soon 8)
Ughhhhhhhhh I saw very chio pink ones toooooo. ._.
Hao hao hao hao hao must save, harhar cheryl's toufu ): :)

uhguhuidhaosdas the new year feels so... ._.


Everything loses its festivity and excitement when you grow older lor :/
zzz okay I suddenly feel very ________________ again. ._.
okay I hope _____________ because _____________. ):
aiya how should I ______________? ): ):
Ugh kill me nao.


k I have a lot of people to thank. Hurhur prlly l8r this week or something I realised I got a lotz of homework to do ._.
My english is dyingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
Jiangbei's 10 jian baos ):
Kill me plz.
Mockingbird questions ):
Kill me plz.
A math questions ):
Kill me plz.
Iya still got. Die liao.
Kill me naoooooooo ):


HAOOOOOO I AM REALLY DROPPING A LOTZ OF HAIR HOW HOW HOW I'M SRS LEH HOW ):
PLUS GROWING VERY FLABBY COS OF ALL THE FOOD HOW ):
HOW HOW HOW I RAN TODAY BUT ITS SO TIRING HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW ):

Hmm should I okay I think I will hmm hmmmmmm blardy carrot extract ____ oil ._.
damnit so oily lah wtshite .______________.

Heheeeeee after CNY celebration tmr tmr going to chin'z howse to plan orientation yay so happy can swim swim I luv swimming 8)
Ok I don't really but nevermind hurhur

Hmm should I go ______ tmr..............


K orientation on friday so fun plz, muahahahahahahaha dirty gamez ftw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Urgh so gay kill me nao.

Darn I just came back now people coming over, ahhhhhhhhh no peace liao hao hao hao ): ): ): ): ): ):

Getting braces on the _______ next month too ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

K bai I feel so sluggish and flabby >.>

P.S can wear nail polish to school on weds nottttttttt I'm lazy to take off how
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Went to bed early last night cos I was tired (ahhhh what's new) then I woke up (out of a dream I think) (oh haha reminds me of clara... and her sis. "I have a dream... so don't wake me up" AHHALOL) at 3:33am according to my phone's clock to see loads of messages and... missed calls. Hahahaha sorry my phone is 24/7 silent mode :)
Anyway as I type this I realise that I am fifteen alr :)
One of those cool old kids :)
Kids who are gonna get their first taste of the O levels this year :/
HAHANVM HORRIBLE STUFF L8R, ITS MY BDAY :)

The messages were so... :)
Haha couldn't sleep after reading them, thats why I'm here 8D
I feel very very lucky (insert jason mraz's lucky here) to know you all 8) 8)
All the you old alr old woman/I cant believe I stayed up just to wish you/wait wait i havent give you present/you also owe me present ect smses were so cute la haha :D

Hahah I rmbr seeing clara at tampines mrt after my appointment, then we met clara's friend so I left first, then after I turned my back on them they stuck their heads out from toys r us to senerade me with another birthday song. HAHA AA MUCH. thanks again if you ever read this :)
Saw Kenglui youjin and melanie after that, reminds me yesterday was a day of coincidence :)
Very touching day to haha :) For all the birthday wishes/messages/notes/cards/gifts and threats :) I know I can be very AP/annoying/bimbo/chubi (AJA FTW) at times, but yeah :)

Haha anyway I'm older alr, though it certainly doesn't feel so :)
Haha quoting melina I should learn how to "act your (my) age and not your(my) shoe size" :)

I am quite sad so see my fifteenth birthday come to pass, being fourteen (and thirteen) was pretty darn awesome. Then again being fifteen is new and fun, and interesting... and who knows what it'll bring :)

Once again I am happy :)

Haha I still can't believe that two years have passed (k almost) since I came into ahs :)
Feels like barely a month really.
When I was much younger I could never really understand the saying that time flies cos the days always felt so long, and I rmbr being indignant cos I felt that the saying was wrong and that I wanted to quickly grow up, haha :D
Now I'm fifteen and I look back and woosh... like when you open a time capsule that has been left unmolested for like twenty million centuries (kay this is pure imagination) then time rushes out at you and you realise....
K I don't make sense :D

I have decided that coming to ahs was an awesome choice :D
Joining guitar was probably one of the bestestest decisions I made so far :D

There were the rough patches and the trying times... but there were also the most awesome and happiest moments :)
Haha I still rmbr sec one so well... :)
Seeing the secondary ones this year choose their cca was very very evocative :)
I suddenly rmbred tons of things, followed by the realisation of lost time... woosh.

I feel like I learnt so much this year :)
Some good and some bad, but still they shape me so I shall not complain :)

I realised that life isn't always a bed of roses :)
Cliche but true.
I realised that the only person I can truly depend on is myself :)
Friends are awesome, they do help you and encourage you... but they have their own troubles too, and sometimes they might not understand. So don't count on other people to be there all the time, yeah that's what I learnt :)
You got to be strong for yourself :)
haha related to the previous point also :)
You got to make your own decisions :)
Like the subject combinations... I didn't know anyone taking the same combination as I, I almost took geog because everyone I knew (exluding history elective people) was taking core geog. But yeah I'm happy I still took core history in the end, cos it's fun and 3L isn't that bad :)
quality over quantity :)
speaks for itself don't you think :)
it's not what others think about you it's what you think of yourself :)
really really true, haha especially during adolescence when rumours (and scandals) flourish like acne. HAAHA :)
I learnt how to appreciate :)
Am still learning how to :)
Lastly, what dosen't kill you only makes you stronger :)

Yay I'm glad I been thru all I've been thru :)
And I think that maybe... I should let go now :)
With a smile :)


P.S ONCE AGAIN I AM THE GREAT ONE-FIVE :)

P.P.S There are always flowers for those who want to see :)
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Yay I got a new blogger :D
How very fickle, I think I shall use liyingsmiles.livejournal for privacy and/or future superhuge photophosts :D

Ugh I want to go for the Jason Mraz concert, but (1) tickets are sold out i think (2) they're expensive ): (3) no one I know likes his music enough to want to go ):
Hurr I didn't really like his music the first time I heard it but after some time I grew to appreciate his songs more, haha k random.

21/22 for bio miniquiz, lol @ choloroplastmic envelope lolololzzz wlao my full marks.

E math test today was easy, haha k better not say, what if I jinx it with my words, ughughuiadfasdusdfkjdsa :/
Chem paper was actually easy but I screwed it ):
Wlao no one told us screened methyl orange was green hokay !@#$%!@$!% ):

So tired recently, I think I have muscle cramps from wushu ._________________.
Hahah lol faithe and her awesome ma3 bu4/nonexistent hand-eye something coordination.
Switched places, sitting beside Clara (who inspired me to use facebook/play pet society during history class, hahahhaaha create next time, haha it's so adorable, cute strawberry) now, hahah free waxing for her, yay you turn 15 today, I don't think you'll read this, but nevermind maybe one day you will, so hi. History was interesting, lolololol facebook wars hahah :D

Ugh I want so much although I already have so much ):
Do I even make sense.
Materialism :/

I realised that things complicate more the more you age instead of the other way around (which was how I had envisioned it to be) Life is really, really odd.

I'm afraid that my decisions will break me. I'm afraid that I'll be too insecure to make a decision.
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