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armageddon
20090531 / 22:35


"Are you upset little friend? Have you been lying awake worrying? Well, don't worry...I'm here. The flood waters will recede, the famine will end, the sun will shine tomorrow, and I will always be here to take care of you."

- Charlie Brown to Snoopy


Nothing's quite wrong, yet nothing's quite right.
做人很难。

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life into my deepest hopes
20090529 / 21:41


zZzZz facebook is taking ages to upload photos -_-

Monsters vs. aliens is awesome :D
Hahahah srsly wtf hahahaha the convenient truth about global warming (pun on the documentary)/random dancing scenes My degree is in dancing and a lot of random lame things xD Srsly very funny.
Yay I got the nice pink shoes from River island wlao cost a bomb but it's so chio hahahah I should go shopping with claire cos she lists the pros and cons of everything you buy -_-
power much. Hahah then we spent so. much. time. walking around and deciding on what to eat we ended up not eating ._.

Quite glad term 2's over :D
Wasn't exactly a very enjoyable ride but I guess we all got through it some way or the other. Hahaha practise, SYF!!!!!, Midyears, Mugging like -_-, slacking like D: D:, failing 4 subjects, Chiang rai (which went to waste in the end UGHHHHHHH I was really looking forward to it), OBS, AYG, Crappy post exam activities (china immersion at c__________), concerts, my first demerit.
Yay. June break. I really need to study + exercise + practise more.

My mom forgot about ptc today so she didn't go ._. And she didn't murder me for the demerit point. Hahahah prawn. :D

Wlao I still have like 100+ more photos to go. Oh woe. Should not have let ky have free reign over the camera :/

cycling, concerts, pedicures, music, haircuts, camps, AYG, homework, projects, study, shopping, running, movies. Seems fun.

Pictures another day. Again.

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perfect fifth
20090523 / 12:12


I woke up pretty late today cos I reached home pretty late yesterday cos of the vjc guitar concert which was pretty darn good. Actually I feel they did better than we did but... nvm.
One day I will play like that pwn soloist guy. One day okeh.
One day I will also play the electric guitar. Nyahahah revenge. Bimbo downstairs watch out.

Got scolded for about two hours straight again today morning and this has been reiterated for about 4 days straight (read: ever since I told my mother about my results) :/
Fine so I slacked through term 2. Cannot ah. Too late alr anw.

I don't like school/I don't like class/lazy/h8 the subjects/no time (aka not bothering to make time) for studying = no bloody mood to study = slack = horrible results

Pardon me cos I currently feel like my results now. (read: crap)

zZz I can't believe I got 3 A2s (english, history, bio) only and not a single bloody A1. :/
Plus I failed 4 subjects. Okeh and B3 for combined humans thanks to lit. And me not bothering to read mockingbird again.

Nvm later have to meet my chiang rai groupmates to do the materialstuff then go shopping for long shorts (aka berms) and all that other chiangrai crap. Nvm still quite excited about chiangrai though I don't know many people going cos they're all from like other CCAs/classes and 3L has only Mandy and me going :/

Bye.

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set a fire just to see the flame
20090520 / 21:20


Okay I finally uploaded some pictures. Hahah still have quite a bit. Haven't even uploaded any syf ones but I can't be bothered. You happy nowwwwwwww I'm tired and I wna sleep yknow. ):

The pink/black neoprint chio right I design one. Hahah I luv doing eye aerobics 8)

Running at Bedok reservoir eons ago, hahaa me shutter monster much.

Temperature taking plus BLAZERS xD haha this was after the Amath paper when everyone else was taking geog xDDDD CARLS JNR! :D

The day I mugged from 11am - at night at changi airport. Wlao see kaiyi's pwn sock tanline. And Diffusion (high potential to low potential hahaahah) before the chemistry paper.

The day we attempted to sail a boat in the drain near the D&T workshop :D

Compare & contrast and hot Andy C something ahahah.

hahah the day charmaine was pregnant with my bag and YY the doggie ahahh xD

Wlao skin tone difference. Maybe it was the lighting :/ And camwhoring with chengshu during pe SHE FINALLY CUT BANGS YAY BANGS PWNNNNNNN :D

more camwhoring during PE. ahhah we boreeeeed much.

some pre-syf day when mich came back to visit and char's bday hahah

changing! + DO YOU SEE THE BUBBLES HAHAH SO GOT FEEL RIGHT xD

MY GUMMY SNAKE PWNNNNS :D + someone's bday xD

Scandal + smth random ._.

HAHAH SMEXY FROG LEGS + CHEM MUGGING AT STABUCKS WITH ZE FROG. Wlao I see my exphone here I'm so saddddddd I miss my phone ):

after 2.4! hahaha we extrad in some NPCC pic. OopsS.

Self mutiliation and melody's the right way to die ahahah. xD Deborah and I are kinda noob at this.

PORTRAITS OF CLARA HAHAHAHAH xD 1. CLARA SC *MELODY DONT EAT IN CLASS* and 2. CLARA THE BIANTAIXZXZ CHESHIRE CAT HAHAHAHAHA EYEBROW! xD

HAHA MELODY AND HER MIKESTAND AND SAW PWNNNNNZORRRRRR xD

tday's recess haha piying with clara's exphone (temporarily my phone) and some long ago day after prac xD

the pig heart from bio lab and melody's chio leg credit me thanks xD

Pwn graph and Noob graph.

OKAY DONE I WNA SLEEP BYEEEEE xD
Haven't done chinese work + history/ss/chinese filing but I don't rly care cos WLAO ITS POST EXAMS ALR I CAN'T BE BOTHERED.

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don't you dare
/ 19:15



My eyes were this puffy today ):

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-
20090519 / 22:21


Happiness is the only sanction of life; where happiness fails, existence becomes a mad lamentable experiment.

George Santayana, 1863-1952, American philosopher, The Life of Reason


Do you know how deeply your words cut.
Well since the children of everyone you know perform so much better than I do then why don't you go adopt someone like them instead of a letdown like me with a future as bleak as the downcast sky?
You say I squander my time on unimportant things.
Humanities and languages and arts and everything else I dare enjoy are nothing compared to the sciences and maths.
And I have nothing left to say.


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halo
20090518 / 21:45


Because humanity is revolting. Because we disgust ourselves.
Because bad things just keep happening.
I think I was surprisingly cheery today even in the face of all those um. setbacks. It now appears that I'm scraping the bottom of the optimism vault. How tragic.

Oh god I want to murder the fricking bimbo (yes the same one) inhabiting the room directly below mine. If I hear Halo one more time I will shoot someone. You can't sing for balls so please spare your neighbours the torture. !@#$%$#!@#$%

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20090517 / 23:50


well bad things are happening but this is life.

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agape
/ 11:22


Why.
Fuck you. It'd better be good.

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right here right now
20090514 / 18:48


I lost my phone. Yeah don't call/sms, leave an offline message if you must. Argh you horrible woman who picked it up I hope you get your retribution someday. (woman cos I think I left it at the ladies. ARGHHHHH.)
Anw thank you all for spamming my phone after knowing I lost it. Hahah the woman will prlly feel guilty after all those smses. -.-
Or they will lag my phone like crazy. Okay ex-phone.
I had a lot of pictures/songs/themes (ARGH MY CHIO RAINBOW THEME D:)/smses/contacts in there yknow damn sad now ):

nvm today was fun anw :D
went bugis (cos marina didn't have any neoprint machines) with piying jo deb xiu joyous and shijia after the LAST PAPER :D
which was crap btw, I fell alseep doing it and all the ciyu I studied didn't come out. Good lor. :/

neh very tired now have to go settle the phone crap, pictures on fb/blogger another time sorry.

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wlao there's some fricking bimbo screaming downstairs argh I feel like pouring water down ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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gold with diamonds :D
20090513 / 18:04


Chem and Emath today was crap. Chem was soooooooo boring my brain stopped functioning. Emath was tedious, brain went into hibernation after question 10.
NVM LAST PAPER TMR~ :D

-syf'09---------------------------------------------------------------
I woke up at 3.30am. Although i'd promised myself i would sleep real early, like maybe 8, i ended up going to bed at 11 cos i couldn't find that stupid scrunchie, and that stupid foundation. I found the latter, but was forced to go to bed hoping my scrunchie was in sch. i washed my face with the cleanser and ice water, and Pa followed me down to meet audrey and we went to eastpoint to meet linjing and wait for yannis' car to come. when we got to sch linjing waslike so scared of the dark ha and i was like "whoooooo omg the classroom so dark omg i saw a shadow move in the classroom!" and linjing was like "eeeeee stop it la i really very scared!" then we went to guitar room. and we all thought charr was inside so we were like "u go first u go first" and finally i think audrey went in first.
we slacked around, cleared up a bit, then waited for charr to come. we went to change into the horrible ahma costume and eat our sunshine bread. i had to eat some of celeste, some of linjing's, and dunno who else man. lol. then when mrs koh came, we had to put makeup, and cos i was in tone 1 ( the fairest ), me and alicia went first. luckily the makeup couldn't really be seen. then audrey and celeste braided their hair ha quite cool lurh. audrey lent me her scrunchie cos i really couldn't find mine D: i paid two bucks for that stupid thing...
walked around barefooted :D mr shi came at around 6+ and so did the seniors. hmm. germaine? si hui? wanting? can't rmb who came...then we practiced and practiced and mr shi said our tempo wasn't quite right. we had to walk past the sec four classrooms to get to the toilet and we were like *hides face in scarf and chiong past classroom* lol. the juniors justyne, geraldine, and tania came at arnd 6.50. haha helpers lol. yiying, chloe, and dunno who came also.
the bus came at nine and the rhythm went with the second guitar although me and celeste were supposed to go with the first guitar. we played mulata and mezza luna on the bus for a while, but then me and meow fell alseep and when i woke up again meow was still sleeping and my hair was like so messy...and there republic poly was.
Big. that was my first thought. big, very big. so posh, so grand...and when the bus turned in, we saw a few girls in much better looking costumes, also holding guitars. that was when the first inkling of anxiety set in. we were herded into the, well, lobby, maybe? we waited outside the door to the tuning room the RI and RGS people walked past. the guys laughed at our stupid costumes and mrs koh was like "don't look at them". eek how could we not look at them? their costumes were like so stylish. rgs had that lime green jacket with white skirt and ri was clad in black i think. when we finally got into the tuning room, we chiong play some parts of both songs and then for some reason gem's heel broke! D: omg dunno what they did to fix it.
and finally we were led to backstage. tania was unusually sober as she wished us good luck, but she did smack me. T.T just like always. haiz. we were making a lot of noise backstage actually, cos we were finally beginning to feel nervous. we were like reminding each other "smile, sit half the seat, move, sway, look at mr shi, enjoy, keep to tempo, listen to each other, rmb musical expressions" blah blah. then mr shi was like smiling and reminding rhythm to keep strict tempo, and then the RGS girls came in! they stood next to us and in comparison we were very fidgety and giggly compared to them lor. then charr asked mr shi something, and mr shi replied some dunno what funny answer and the whole section of ppl there just exploded with laughter, including some of the RGS girls lol too bad i never see D:
then. it was our turn.
SMILE was my repeated thought. DON'T TRIP. we sat down and bai our scores for show, and stood up when mr shi came in, and smiled at the audience for all i was worth, even though mrs koh had told us not to look at the audience, i did. strangely, all nervousness just vanished when i looked at the crowd in the auditorium. i was also trying to pick out the judges. didn't work.
I MISSED THE FIRST STRUM! i didn't see mr shi's baton go down and i lagged, luckily i didn't try to save it by strumming a beat late; i just let it go, smiled like i was playing perfectly, and continued. the echoes were loud, really loud. there was nothing like it. i couldn't really hear either first guitar or second guitar, only some parts, and i hoped with all my heart they were keeping to our time. i swayed and i smiled and i tried to really feel the song. regardless, for some reason, my attention wandered a few times ( crap man stupid how could i let that happen? ) cos i was still wondering where the judges were, and how they thought of our performance.... mulata was a bit messy, although our dynamics had miraculously improved!!!! :D :D i nearly forgot to "flip page" for second song man.
Les Reves Du Matin was much better than usual. the dynamics were good, and i swear one of the few times my eyes flickered around unconsciously, i saw shawn swaying too omg omg i love you shawn! ( or was that jacob? o: ) the last part of our second song i think we did really well. the tremolo by the alto guitar was so chilling man, and zhitao played his whatever-that-part-is-called perfectly love you too zhitao! and that one beat of RINGING SILENCE before audrey's and hailong's last note was so profound, time could have literally stopped just for them. i actually held my breath for that second and let it out when audrey banged her guitar. i felt our second song much more than the first. when we stood up to bow, i was grinning so widely cos it was finally over.
yannis cried outside and i was hugging her and i nearly cried too, but i usually don't cry in public so i didnt. yannis was like "omg omg i'm so happy so happy" and *sniffsniffsniff*. we all went into the auditorium again to watch the other schools. after rgs ( crap we didn't get to watch theirs! ) was st hilda's, they played canon in D and although it was okay, there was like practically no dynamics...i can't rmb what schs came next, but there was ACSI and loyang and toa payoh and dunno what.... crap man they were so good that me and yannis were like dismayed at what we thought was our rapidly slipping away chances of GWH.
toa payoh played green fields of summer and lover's theme, MAN those were our songs cos MR SHI TAUGHT THEM TOO!! i was like wtcrap how come..? then was it their sch whose double bass player played like crazy damn good and the running notes for green field at the last part she spun her double bass one full round like walao so crap man! D:D: so good like hell i was so amazed and goddamn impressed sia! then we were like "hailong, you must aspire to be like her!" haha. then we all went for lunch at the canteen so fun! we all bought chicken rice and bubble tea. i pulled my scarf down so it looked more like a tie and rolled up my sleeves i swear we look nicer that way!!!
when we finished eating me and audrey chionged back to the lobby area so that the sec ones could go eat, and we took off our stupid court shoes and held them and pao across the gravel kinda regret that cos the ground was damn hot, and when we entered the lobby holding our shoes we looked like some stupid idiots lol so funny man. the in charge woman kept coming out to tell us not to play or anything in the lobby she was so frustrated. cam whor like crazy man everything also muz take pic together. :D :D
the bus finally came walao i nearly lost that stupid ahma flower brooch thingy. we went with the secon guitar again and we played mezza luna, love story, lover's theme, greenfield, blah. then i dozed again until we finally got back to school. me, celeste, and meow went to ask mdm ho whether we could still postpone our bio test the next day cos we really wanted to go hear the results after paper 1. D: she say cannot. MAN should have taken the stupid thing last week lorh.
when everyone left we were still there cam whoring, jumping pic, piggy back pic, wushu pic, taller/shorter pic haha dunno what man.

-From Yanyou's blog :D


Reading this makes me miss playing with guitar. handing over soon ):
Syf was awesome to the maXxX :DDDDDD
Woke up darn early, showered, packed, made coffee. Claire's parents fetched us to school, argh I forgot to bring down my costume the first time then I saw claire's one hanging in her car and I was like ARGHHHHHH then I ran up to get it :/
reached school super duper early, hahaah ahs was darn creepy ok like totally dark and everything. Reached the guitar room to find that a few guitarians were there alr :D Played around a bit, had bread, changed into costumes. Songs were played, make up appiled, Ensemble was committed into the hands of the Powers Above.
Syf place. Nerves acting up. Lots of hold guitar properlys, rmbr to tune, don't waste time in the tuning rooms ect went around. The people there kept shushing us, hahah we weren't supposed to tune but then Mrs Koh decided that it didn't make any difference cos everyone else was being noisy so she told us all to quickly tune hahah hilarioussss :D
In the tuning room (whassitcalled). Nerves fraying. Went through selected parts of the songs. Mulata not impactful enough. Les reves du martin not enough feelings. Ten minutes went pass way too fast.
Backstage. Glimpes of the audience and lights through curtains. Nerves at breaking point. Even more whispered reminders. Mr shi was funny :D
Spent way too long backstage. Hands sweaty. My shirt kept falling out (._.).
Onstage - GT08 ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL GUITAR ENSEMBLE.
smiled for all we were worth. Looked at audience. Looked at Mr shi. Baton swooped, entry of Mulata. Tried to concentrate on playing but attention occasionally slipped away. It felt very surreal playing onstage. After so many gruelling hours of practise this. is. IT.
Felt awesome playing. :D
Les Reeves du Martin. No major timing slipups. The last beat was beautiful.
Left the auditorium. Yannis cried, we all hugged her. Couldn't believe it was over. Even more surreal than playing onstage.
Re-entered the auditorium to watch the other schools. RI was good. Lots of them were, felt GWH slipping away. Lunch after that at RP's canteen, hahaha chicken rice gooooooooood. CHIJ's conductor came over to congradulate us, told us that we could definitely get a gold/gold with honours. Everyone was damn happy. Like we'd alr gotten the award. Later while we were eating Mr Shi himself came over and said smth along the lines of who wants to bet with me we'll get gold/gwh. Needless to say everyone was giddy with joy. Ran back to the syf site building place, camwhored like .-., got scolded quite a few times for making noise, made great fools out of ourselves. It was awesome fun. :D
Back to anglican. Packed, camwhored, talked, left.
Yeah they were right when they said syf was once in a lifetime. Gold with honours just made it even more memorable.

I luvvvvvv ahguitar :D

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post pictures after papers hokay I have a lot.
I want the syf recordings if anyone has them thanks ;>

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Schutzstaffel
20090512 / 19:43


You criticise everything I do and you blame my friends for everything. You don't get the big picture you see only what you want to see. Well you think it's easy? If this is the way I go about doing things then let me be. You assume and you think your assumptions are so right but you're nowhere close. Not even lukewarm. When I attempt to tell you the truth you don't believe me. Fine.

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Bio was okay. Not as difficult as I expected but I don't know where my scores will be this time. History was horrible. The SBQs were utter ugh. I don't know if I'll pass, don't feel confident about the Stalin essay. SBQs are a gone case sooo. Nvm I shall take comfort in the fact that all those days put into slogging Russia weren't in vain. Okay I hope so anw :/
After papers was literally dragged to eat by clara and melody and I spent most of the time listening to their stories while semi stoning cos I wanted to sleep.

Bye study fricking chemistry and e fricking math.

I can't stand you.

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!#$!@#%
/ 03:13


erythrocytes leucocytes lymphocytes phagocytes thrombocytes

omg nowonder they said blood was >.>
sian I don't rmbr anything about bloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood

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Freikorps ftw
/ 00:59


I just saw something that made me go O.O + WTF!!!!!!!!!! x123804612374
SO GAY OMG.

Weimar government lousy la.

Sleeping is soooo yesterday night. GMORNING IT'S 1AM COFFEE PWNZ.

I have a lot of skeletons in this closet of a heart. Mmm.

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and Stalin turns around in his little Communist grave
20090511 / 22:18


ze face is acting like ze kolkhoz for ze zits!!!
zey muzt be exterminated immediately like ze kulaks! To ze gulags zey go!

ARGH I STILL HAVE NAZI GERMANY AND FACIST JAPAN ARGHHHHHHHHH
Ok la at least did bio. Left blood and general revision which is... a lot. -.-
Nvm nvm after bio/history tmr there's chem/emath and chinese then YAY FREEEEEEEEDOOM

k bai.

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20090510 / 22:59


what sort of fucking world is this where murders accuse thieves for their petty crimes?
screw off.

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how did stalin implement industrialisation?
/ 18:03


Not even halfway through bloody communist russia and I. WANT. TO. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI. omg history paper gna be damn screwed ):
I keep getting distracted at home sian. H8 studying keep thinking of the post exam days -.-
studying for papers is suchhhhh a chore.
Ok maybe tmr I'm going out cos studying at home is epic fail.

kill me nao.

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broken glass
/ 13:10


I resolve to start on History after the bloating in my stomach subsides.

I think it was a smart choice :D
I think I am semi jubliant now :DD
NYAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

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Stalingrad
20090509 / 22:02



Today was ultimate slack. Supposed to do emath but... it's math. Had lunch at changi airport's popeye's yesterday with some 3L people :D We are damn racist. Faith's China accent is damn good hahahaha. Candy empire after that hahaha granny apple smith or smth. Jellybeans are goooooooooooooood :D Lit paper was utter crap. Bidding combined humans, amath and english grades a not very tearful farewell. Am going to stuff head with Bio and History over the course of the next two days. Hopefully my mind's distensible like the stomach. With it's villi and microvilli. Or is that in the small intestine? This time tmr we'll all be playing. Until the results come back, ughh kill. me. nao. I doubt that my term report will be pleasant. :/
Am now rather absorbed with the ww2 book I got from the library yesterday. Omg the Nazis are evil to the max ):
And that reminds me that I haven't yet completed communist Russia. Nazi Germany and Facist Japan lie untouched too. Oh woe.

Nothing as bad as a wrinkle in your heart.

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bolsheviks
20090508 / 09:26


Nyahahahah physics people taking paper now.
I still haven't started on lit revision and honestly I can't be bothered (paper is an hour and a half away). This is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. Ok I shall read through mockingbird and pass it off as revision yay!! :>
I think I shall go make myself instant noodles. Ikea chocolate pwnz.
*don't flunk lit don't flunk lit don't flunk lit*
zZzZZzz communist russia and digestion still going through my brain. Mensheviks lenin october revolution Josef stalin peristalsis polypeptide fatty acids glycerol amino acids protein prorennin and mucin.
crap I forgot the things in stomach juice. crappppppppppppp.
I can't spell bougerious ok supposed to be bourgeoisie.
Sian studying is ): bye.

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Leon trotsky
/ 07:05


Yay have only lit at 11am later :D
I like having later papers.
Was at tampines 1 with clara vanessa and melody yesterday while everyone else had their geog papers nyaahahahahahhahaha.
English SS and Amath down.
Lit Bio History Chem Emath Chinese to go :D

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20090507 / 19:20


When I consider the short duration of my life, swallowed up in the eternity that lies before and after it, when I consider the little space I fill and I see, engulfed in the infinite immensity of spaces of which I am ignorant, and which know me not, I rest frightened, and astonished, for there is no reason why I should be here rather than there. Why now rather than then? Who has put me here? By whose order and direction have this place and time have been ascribed to me?


Blaise Pascal, 1623-1662, French philosopher, physic and mathematician, Thoughts


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double/side
20090504 / 17:28






You don't know me. Therefore, you don't make ungrounded assumptions.

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gaaaaaaaaaay
/ 04:37


Spent my past hour doing five measly Amath questions (okay there were about a trillion sub questions but that's not the point) D:
I can't even solve some (I think I solved the rest wrongly) and it's the first five questions of the paper -.-
and nope, not a bad dream. (Oh yeah btw I had a bad dream ok it was bad cos I was very sad in the dream. Damnit I always have dreams that involve me being very damn sad. HOW?)

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Sad
To dream that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your
disappointments and make yourself happy. Try not to dwell on the negative. The
dream may be a reflection of how you are feeling in your waking life.
Abandonment
To dream that you are abandoned, suggests that it is time to leave behind past feelings and characteristics that are hindering your growth. Let go of your old attitudes. A more direct and literal interpretation of this dream is that you have a fear of being deserted, abandoned, or even betrayed. It may stem from a recent loss or a fear of losing a loved one. The fear of abandonment may manifest itself into your dream as part of the healing process and dealing with losing a loved one. It may also stem from unresolved feelings or problems from childhood. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are feeling neglected or that your feelings are being overlooked. Perhaps the dream is a metaphor that you need to approach life with "reckless abandon" and live more freely.
they didn't have heartbroken ._.
wlao I think I'm some closet emoer now.

Screwed for Amath cos I have noooooo idea what polygnomals (howisitspelt) is and all that ._.

KILL ME NAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I H8 MATH ):
going to do chinese now which is equally -.-
(I refuse to touch the 13 frigging chapters of ciyus + 50 chengyus)

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Some people believe dreams can predict the future, but studies have never proven that to be true, mainly because it is difficult to study dreams in a laboratory.

AHAHA PWN. Ok shit need to stop reading up on dreams.

When you are having a really scary dream, for example, a monster is chasing you, turn to the monster and say, “Hey! Get out of here and leave me alone! This is MY dream and I’m waking up now!” It may just work for you!

PWN x2
Will have to bug Mr mok after school tday. ):

BYE TIME TO DO JB WORK B4 SHE MASTICATES (crap need to stop thinking Biology) ME.

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nothing good about goodbye
20090503 / 21:55


I want to be happily married with awesome kids and an equally awesome job and house when I die. I want to have ticked off all the boxes in my to-do-before-I-die list before I die. I want to have a rainbow coffin surrounded by pretty flowers/shiny stuff. I want to be cremated then have my ashes scattered over the ocean when I die.
I want to die surrounded by people I love. I want to die when I have finally come to terms with death. And I definitely do not want to die with braces on.

I think it's quite scary not knowing when you'll die.

I'm not suicidal you bimbo ._.


P.s. everyone is in the yay I'm gna mug my ass off mood now and I'm still like argh noooooooo study?? what study??????!!?! mood. Die.

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argh
/ 13:45


I don't want to study at all kill me naooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

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could it be
20090501 / 10:03


NYAHAHAHAH I'M HAPPY AGAIN :D
Yay l8r going to be fun. Weather very tempting now but !NO I WILL STUDAYe.
4 days to midyears and I have yet to start some organized studying. Nvm I'll make it somehow :D
Can't wait for post mye days though.
Pictures another day (or after myes we'll see)
ARGH I KEEP DRAGGING OOPS.
Wlao my mood flunctuates like -.-
K BAI STUDY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BOUNCY THING :D

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Let's just say it was a little slip up on my part and nothing else.
I said I'd forget you.
I will.

let's be friends okay?
okay.

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