bad spending habit really. K so I didn't spend that much but still I shouldn't even be.
Dilemma #2, omg should I should I not. Plus pink converses. argh.
Bad Liying.

I think I should just give up. It's just not as easy as it sounds.
I can do it if I want to. I damn well can.

Oh woe. Liying go study nao.

No I shall go paint my nails. Bai.

Hopes that kept me going through the week. Hopes that were utterly... dashed.
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Yay I have the whole set of coloured-rubber-bands-for-braces on my teeth nao :D
I think there's about twenty. Hmm one day I will count them.
Joyous was being very unhelpful and sadistic during recess when I was struggling to eat noodles. ._. xiu and deb also. very not funny hor I say.
Got the variety of omg liying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and eh smile leh!!!!!!! today, and loads of omg why you put so many colours!!!!!???!!? ect. ._________.

braces are not the least bit fun (contrary to popular belief) and they definitely do not make you look any cuter. :/
Infact, bangs + braces + chio bling bling spects (optional) = UUUUUUBER GEEKAGE!
hair faster growwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
eh actually I quite like my bangs. Perhaps I shall keep them. :D

wlao my mom just banned me from eating cotton candy, ))))))))))):
oman so sad ugh.

3L is getting quite fun :DDDDDD
not v v v v v v v v v v v close to anyone yet but... aiya time will change things I hope.
SUGAR BISCUITS FTW :DDDDD I LUV SUGAR BISCUITS HAHAHAHA :D :D :D :D :D HAIRY LIKES THEM TOO! :D
and I'll make an awesome cavewoman manzzzzz yayyyyyyyyy :DDDDDD
zw and cheryl gou4 bian4 tai4 le4, they got like super duper high for the A math test while I only got...... )))))))))))):
OWELLS NVM BIANTAI JIU SHI BIANTAI :D
Lit was in the lab, hahahahahah Melody and hairy and I were on msn hahahahahahhahahah but I signed out after a while cos i accidentially closed the thing and was too lazy to sign in again XD

urgh lucky couples who get to see each other all the frrrrricking time omg. ONE WEEK WITHOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND WON'T KILL LAH PLZ ._.
(not you lah Joyce ahahah)

I don't feel like posting alr, bai bai I'm v hungry off to find mushy food! :D

picz next time.
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I SAW A RAINBOW TODAY :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
With Yanniz and chin hahah how unromantic :@

happy nowwww, my history grade is savedddddddddddd ahahahah I hope mrs law doesn't count the other assesment :D :D :D :D :D
Combined humans is doomed thou. Please lit do me a favour. A math and E math and H chinese are lost causes alr D:
1/3 of the level passed (wlao in other words more than half failed) the A math test wootz screwed much ._.

zZz Clara and I were very spaz in class today, hahhaahahah I kill you!!!!1111 x12384612394 in super high pitched voices + spying on ____ & ____'s da qing ma qiao-ing :D
So sad Melody and Melanie changed seats alr no one to let me pull arm hair and no more manicures and no more vandalizzzzzzing people's hands cos Clara smacks darn hard ):
(Hi hairy.)

The wushu cher very paedophile/pervert/AP I tell you, just like jb :D
K maybe all people from C___ are like that.

JB IS GOING TO KILL ME TMRRR (!!!!!!!) UGH I OWE HER JIANBAO TWO/THREE DAYS ALR D: D: D:

L1R5<10 pleaseeeeeeeee DDDDDD:
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Intenzive A math mugging with Clairey after school hahahahhahahah ok it wasn't supraaaaa dupra intensive cos i think i did like a pathetic handful of questions only but wlao frickingggggg difficult hokay even claire couldn't solve some of them ._. Anw as I was saying (no I wasn't actually but nevermind that) this is THE most intensive (sorry pardon lack of words, drought of brain cells over here) math revision/mugging so far this year and I anticipate (should I say dread) future ones. ):
A math suckzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

and and today was a day of random conversations, Clarahhhhhhhhhhhhh was very amuzed when I suddenly commented on the clouds halfway through E math and whooo she even quoted me saying eh today the clouds very nice hor or something singlish like that, hhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahah I think she quoted me a few more times but I can't rmbr.
A math common test tmr damnnnnn I think weightage vehhhhhh heavy one. Bio test immediately after that 70% of CA omgggggzzzzzzzzzzz. Then the English compre test I missed on Thursday that everyone said was tough ):

If I flunk either A math or Bio after studying soooooo darnnnnnnnnn looooooooooooong (k la not very long but still) I think I'll kill someone srs ugh D:

Stayed up to watch The Pianist yesterday night C:
Was quite nice leh, wlaoooooooo the nazis are supra evil they just drag jews out at random then make them pa1 xia4 then shoot them in the head omgggggggggggggggg D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:
aiya it was very very supra dupraaaaaaaa sad leh but quite nice ):
I feel very very very privileged + lucky all of a sudden :D

ugh supra tired, days are fast but supraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tiring D:
Sec 1 + 2 feels very slack now. ._. ._. ._. ._. I think I should have slacked more then lor although I did slack a lot alr but aiyaaaaa take advantage what.

Lastly,

HELLO CHARBALLZ I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T REPLY YOUR MESSAGE FOR LIKE THREE/TWO DAYS ALR D:
I KNOW (HOPE) YOU WILL SEE THIS OKAY I THINK I'M TOO LAZY FOR MY OWN GOOD. ):
PLEASE DONT DIVORCEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEEEE I WILL REPLY SOMEHOW. ONE DAY . SOON ENOUGH I HOPE. ):

Eh food for thought:

If you throw a boomerang out to outer space (though its quite impossible lah haha) then will it still come back, cos like outer space no gravity leh, I think it'll just float through the vast galaxy and never come back even thou boomerangs are supposed to come back
K then again I might be wrong, don't take Physics what yay so happy I didn't take it too :)

harhar I will resist the forces of outer-space-gravityless (force of ungravity hahahaha what crap) for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu thou :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

My english very very very very very crap now how. D:
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yay amazing how a call makes your day :)

I still got a lot of work to do, thank you liying for procrastinating, there's a nice 10pm show :D
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k I just don't feel like studying, ):
everything's so ): recently then I'm veryyy lazy to reply messages.

K it's 4.44pm now (again) but it feels so much later, can I please not-do A math...

Bio test 70% and I don't feel like studyinggggggggggggggggg
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ughhhhhhhhh I szwear to hate ljs from now on srsly ._.
No infact I shall stay off all fast food ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and my hair ugh I think herbal essence dries it like that chemical I forgot the name ._.

thanks gem + char for the ummm tokens of luv. hahahahaa I like them a lot :)

studyyy bye ):


but they in all their flamboyance look like each other does that not defeat the purpose?
so what now?
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hahahaha clara very funny. She thinkings that Melody and I both got stomach flu cos we ate sweets in class ._.

arghhhhhhhh stomach killing me I szwear shouldn't have eaten LJS with the guitarians but haah it was very fun :)
stalking teachers plus talking and ....

srsly stomach killing me omg.

): ): ): ): ):

OMANN ALL THE HW IS UGHHHHH ):

K gna put it here cos i am very lazy and my stomach... ARGH SRSLY ):

clara ; people in their right minds never take pride in their talents. says:
pg 50 and 51
clara ; people in their right minds never take pride in their talents. says:
amath textbook
clara ; people in their right minds never take pride in their talents. says:
q 1,2,3,4,5,6,10b,11a to f & e
clara ; people in their right minds never take pride in their talents. says:
e lit read chaps 6-10

omg kill me naooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

why don't I ever learn ):
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The Quiet World by Jeffrey McDaniel

In an effort to get people to look
into each other's eyes more,
and also to appease the mutes,
the government has decided
to allot each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear
without saying hello. In the restaurant
I point to chicken noodle soup.
I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn't respond,
I know she's used up all her words,
so I slowly whisper I love you
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.

I think I drank so much water I feel like puking again or maybe it was the illegal chocolate biscuits and right now I keep thinking about needing to trim my nails and then going off to study, Bio and History definitely, but my History and Chem books are in school, yes and photocopy some notes, and try to make myself not-fail A math and E math.
And I hope I'll get my guitar later (I hope they remember to bring it down from the guitar room perhaps I should text them again?) so that I can play, oh yeah March exam at Plaza Sing, and...
I sort-of miss you, but perhaps (yes enough time passed for the buts to surface, oh it's 4.44PM now)I keep thinking of the days long buried in rolls of escaping time, and...
I realise that I shouldn't even remember them, that most of the time things aren't as easy.
I'm thinking of joining the guitarians for dinner later, though I don't know if they will be dining at chang2yue1han4ning2 or zhitao's favvv fastfood place, and I prlly can't eat anything unless I want to induce another pukeathon.
I just watched Pride and Prejudice and I find it quite nice, oh and halfway through vanessa smsed me saying that they were rotting in JB's chinese lesson, oh yeah I still haven't replied the text messages, but darn I'm so lazy to reach over for that phone I still don't really like.
Anyway I do find it quite comfortable sitting here and pondering and feeling my thoughts convert from something shapeless to neat words on the page, yes much neater than my own, I think it's quite insane but then again...

You know one word keeps resounding through my hollow-feeling head (like a bell) and it sounds very much like

Pathetic.

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K I shall post pictures.


Birthday presents. Some of the belated ones aren't here... :X
hahahh thanks for all da wishes and things, and the card from 3L :)

Recently:

Jangly phone thingses, Piying's rose 1 week after Vday, Joey's dog JACOB *eyebrowzz*, the super nice weather :D

Hahaha hairy and I are smart plz, my under-desk is so much neater now :D, Zhitao's hamster laoshu (-.-), hahah jo's eyebrowz are growing back again lolz :X, shoe spammmm :D

Vanessa's lightning-shaped bald spot, Melody's finger puppet thingy zilianing in hairy's bimbo phone, screened methyl orange which is actually green, some random day in Chem lab that was spamedited in my lousy phone.

Crack-smiley-face-thing, some random picture, and I forgot what lesson.

Hairy's stash of stapler bullets koped from ms K. haha cheapo much. And our chem group :)

the powerpoint they did during bio at the computer lab, cheryl's shoe in contrast to mine, I always thought hers were smaller actually....
and that very long ago day at chin'z house, and Avelene's attempt of an artistic shot of Hairy's acoustic.

zZZz I feel very hungry now cos I haven't eaten anything proper for more than a day already ugh and i think I puked out last last night's dinner and whatever else I ate that day so....
And I've been living off plain water and gross medicine for one day alr...
(K but I sneakily ate two slices of gummy pizza and some chocolate biscuits just now cos I really craved solid food and now I'm feeling a little queasy ughhhhhhhh)
yesterday I was so dizzy I couldn't walk or sit up straight so I spent the day sleeping (when I wasn't puking and... yeah). Yay finally caught up on all that lost sleep-time.
being sick isn't fun, just quite happy I got to skip school for two days :)
Though it means I'm quite screwedth in subjects like A & E math, ughhh so difficult okay ):
ughhhhhh my hair is disgusting now srsly and my lips are chapped and gross and you don't want to see how pale and tired I look. And I think I lost weight too. ._.

I'm not performing up to standard for Bio ._.
Bio test on monday.
Next week this time I'll have metal in my mouth.

I can't believe I missed char's talk on thursday ))))))))))))))))))))):
CHARMAINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE RE-ENACT IT AGAIN PLZ ):

I shall go watch TV because I cannot remember when the last time I watched TV was.
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ahhhhh humans overload omgz z_z
why do they have soooooooooo many plans/pacts/treaties/commisions zzzzzzzzzzz but WW2 still started anw what ._______________________.

and mockingbird ._. ._. ._. ._.
J.Y.'s notes are... ._.
._____________.
Thankuuuu gem hahahaha I think you'll prlly save my skin :D

hur upload pictures when I have time damn still need to do the birthday thing hurrrrrrrrrr

sorry char sorry char l8r I message you I know you'll see this just not in time :D
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"Until I feared I would lose it, I never loved to read. One does not love
breathing."

- Scout Finch in To kill a Mockingbird

Today was... okay :D
Went to Simei to buy ______'s hamster with ______, _________, and _________. The names are blanks cos ________ wanted me to censor them because _________ said it was wierd.

Think, liying.
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I think I have a lot to think about, all the emotional baggage (souvenirs from the past few weeks perhaps) and the realisations.
I just want a break from it all.

Maybe I should stop dreaming. Maybe I should stop hoping. Maybe I should live my life without the drama without the pain and without the pleasure.

K but yesterday was very fun haha slutty heels 8) + hats ftw :D

I'm so sorry but the roses are dying.

Don't flatter yourself because not many of you have the right to know (close as we may seem).

Someone please shed light on it all. Feels like I'm losing foothold, and my hands are getting weary.

zZzZzzz plus I have a sore throat. I think sexy raspy voice will take it's leave in a while though.
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Hahahahah was writing valentine notes to people, then... :)))))
Started thinking of the sec 1 days... then sec 2 :))))))
and the people :))))))))))))))))
hahahhaa sec 1 in particular... :)
I think I studied like super little back then. Ahhhhh those days :)

Yay anw I believe this is the true meaning of valentines!!!!!! HHAHAHAH.

BTW TODAY IS FRIDAY THE 13TH XD

omg that song just came on. :) ):
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today was a fricking horrible day ):

got caught by the vice principal (._.) for my skirt (.__________.) while walking up to school with Keng. She took down my name/class arrrrrrrgagh.
short skirt = vain + you want boys to see your legs + can't rmbr what else. .__________________.
Oh maybe insecure too. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I know school's not a fashion show but still we're teenagers ):
then the parade square floor was wet and eurgh my treacherous skirt soaked up the moisture. Very. very. unpleasant.
THEN I slipped and fell on the (WET) drain while walking up to class with piying and joyous ughhhh lucky they pulled me up ._.
crazy embarassing.
THEN I found out I just passed the Hcl (two pathetic marks darn it) test even though I studied. And the answers were soooo. daaaaaaaarn. Obvioussssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. Omg kill me nao.
Then as I was about to sleep after finishing the lit test J. Yeo proclaimed that everyone should keep their heads off the tables (k minor detail but still!!!!) zZzZzzZ still I wasn't feeling very chirpy alr and I woke up earlier to try to study again ushzzzzzzzzz.
and THENNNNNNNNN I flunked the E math test. And everyone was alr like done and super duper confident or something. UGH.
AND THEN! Mrs L caught us using our phones during chem lab (argh she wasn't teaching right)
k lucky she didn't confiscate it or something.
Plus I had a bad hair day.

At least lunch with Joyce & Joyous was awesome + super fun :D

Bai need to practise organ + study for chem test although mrs L didn't return us our chem files
-.-
How to study you tell me. uHghhghhhHGHhgHgh.

PS Russian history is super interesting :D
PPS compared to what I hear about geog from like everyone else XD
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I honestly don't feel like studying anymore ._.

It's just a lot of things ._.
the straw that broke the donkey's back.
everything's really quite disappointing now.
Maybe I'm thinking too much about the tests. I mean. They're just tests.
Maybe I should scrape studying for lit and just do E math.
Sometimes people are so.
Or perhaps I should scrap studying for lit E math and chem and history.
wtf two tests/quizzes per day ugh
and I feel.
Bahhhhhh. At least bio went well yesterday.
no it's not about guys.
Then...
It's more
Ugh I can't speak about it.
of
ugh whatever happened to my english.

The best of us can find happiness in misery.

I just want this week to be over. No actually I just want this year to be over.

Save your pity.
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Yay did bio alr I hope I don't flunk the quiz l8r :)
Have been doing better (as compared to 08) in most of the tests so far yay :D
Studying does pay off :D

So cool everything's interrelated XD
Bio and history hahaha.
Did the great depression cause the League to fail
So cool plz :)

I quite like my subject combination (except for perhaps lit ._.)
keep suanzing people about physics hahaha so boringgggggg.

YIXIU'S CLASS IS THE MUGGEREST OF ALL SO SCARY PLZ D:

sua gu/ku/khu, obiang, ulu hahaha super ._.

shouldn't have rebonded my fringe the ends are frizzing omg disaster!!!!

PE LATER ):
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

Okay feeling very unprepared for the SS test l8r.
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which part of I have just had a horrible day (no wait make that practically every bloody school day) so don't freaking push it any furthur do you not comprehend.

It's not fucking fair when you take your temper out on me when I've done no wrong I know of.

Just because you don't see me studying it doesn't mean that I don't. I try so hard but you don't ever acknowledge my efforts rewarded or not.
Go on and put a stop to my instrument classes. Go on and try to take me out of cca. Go on and try to lock me at home.

I will never be good enough for you.

Why.
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JUST FYI. Of course it isn't getting on my nerves dear I just mentioned it for world peace and joy for all. Very off pissing indeed.

My bangs aren't poker straight anymore ):
Liying stop being _________________.

Wai so many tests this week ):
Cannot flunk ss tmr. Bai.
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I've been wanting to talk about this for the longest time alr but I never did manage to, ugh maybe I'm losing what little touch with words I had or maybe I never was good with words to begin with. Sometimes it feels like there's a missing piece somewhere in me, and I keep trying to fill the gaping abyss... I clamour and I clutch at things, thinking that perhaps they'll seal it like fillings in teeth. Then time passes and the facade is eroded away much like a river bed (haha sec two geog) and I'm left with dust falling through my fingers and a head of murky thoughts. Then I wonder is this what I really want is this what I think will complete me, and I realise the answer is a negative figure. So then I think hey I'm done with this and I think I got it right this time, and then the whole cycle repeats itself again like a caterpillar to a butterfly and back again. It's pointless chasing my own tail, keying in the same sequence of figures into the great calculator of your mind and getting error 1.
It's a malevolent cycle I drove myself into, it doesn't seem to harm now but in time i think it'll take it's toll on me.
I want so much even though I already have enough. Insatiable. A black hole of desire. Down the depths of the bottomless pit.
Perhaps I take too much for granted, perhaps I overindulged in something I should never have tasted...
I feel like a hamster on a treadmill.

Help me out of my endless moment of folly.

I think I'm losing it, must be cheryl...
Anw I wna watch the sophie scholl the final days l8r, so coooool (:
I like my poker bangs XD
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BFF 8)

HAHA SIAN HAIRY CLARA AND HER GAY PURSE AND MINLI'S GAY BANANA 8D

Pre haircut and post haircut.
The stylist straightened my hair before cutting cos she said it was "too... ... .... messy"
wtshite???? zZzZZzzzZ nothing wrong with bangs although I look a bit bit bit gay and a bit like J____ ._.

zZzZZzzzz I look like I have very short hair now how. First picture taken during the harmony concert last year ):
damn still miss 08.

HHAHA CHNG + JOYCE + CHERYL ALMOST DIED TEACHING ME A MATH XD
STUPID CHNG CHAO BEH YOU SUCK NONEXISTENT BALLS (copyright meow) XD

Jo's ownzzzzz LG phone with the chio light thingy XD Chioer than clara's bimbo phone HA XD

last friday's orientation was ):
Ugh super unfair plz.

zzZzzzzzZzzzzZZ super childish plz .__________.
can you plzzz stop it it's really annoying ._.
Like........ not interested in anyone so there -.-

K bai tmr got another zuowen test UGHHHHHHHhh and next week is....... ))))):
so many tests it's gay.

K debby cheer up it'll work out okay :))))))))))
smile smile :)))))))))))))

P.S. I AM GOING TO REBOND MY FRINGE SOOOOOOOOOON YAY SO HAPPY XD
DON'T NEED TO STRAIGHTEN IT EVERY MORNING LIAO (ugh it dosen't work anw).
K maybe I should consider investing in a hair straightener.

P.P.S WHAT'S YOUR GAY PROBLEM!
(new favourite phrase hahahaha)

P.P.P.S NI NAO NI YOU BAO YA! (another new favourite phrase)
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I just got distracted by my hair.






It loooks a very cool shade of brown under flash.
I have crappy crappy ends ):
My hair feels like plasticy synthetic grass D:

and I am balding. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)








I really am balding..............................................

bye back to chengyus ):
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Haha tres sec one!
Ahhhhhhh I really hope I won't flunk Chinese later ):
Studying chengyus now (eating M&Ms from piying :D)

I wonder if ants ever sleep ._.

zZzzZzzZZzZzz still beset by unacedemic thoughts, damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

K I enjoy posting in like this. Yaye. Actually I was just reminded of sec one when I heard LMNT's Juliet :D
Oman where have those carefree days gone to. ):
Lao le lao le.

Bai chengyu beckons.
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I think I am beginning to get the basics of surds :D
I am pleased with myself :D
I hope I don't fail tmr's Chinese because JB looks very, very annoyed with my ting xie score alr (Ugh and I studied for it) .......................

K I keep wondering what if I.. Hmmzzzz maybe things will be better, maybe not. It'd have been interesting either way, perhaps....................................
okay actually definitely not, ugh eew. I suddenly feel very disgusted by/with (??) myself.
hurrrrrrrrr complicated .-.
les pathetique!

oman why isn't, it'd have been quite fun, plus plus plus...... ):
darny.

Hehe today morning was so :D

Cheryl just made me feel like cycling again.
Darn why did the holidays pass so fast.

omg my phone just restarted itself
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WTF I AM SUPER DUPE CREEPED OUT NOW.
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF NO WAY.

oh okay heng it's not.

OMG THAT WAS SOOOOOO GAY.

Bai study A math/chinese.
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It's february already and I'm sec three already. Ugh.

I need to pay more attention to studying ):
Can't be distracted so easily.

Argayorgtfadoyl but _____ is so cute 8)

Okay must study. Must. Study.

Need A math help ):

I hate mondayzzzzzzzzz )))))):

Got A math and double Chinese.

I suppose life's like that :/

dum dum dee dum dum dum dee dum dum

hahahaha need to stop singing that in class it's getting stuck z.z
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you don't understand anything you just assume you dont know how much it means to me and you never tried to understand.
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I dreamt of pirates and the sea and another planet/universe and missing home and I woke up with fixing a broken heart playing in my head.

Subway rocks la haha, I don't look manly 8)
Yay looking forward to later, heheeeeeeee we do this every year.

I srsly need A math help plz ):

APPLE SANDWICHES! :)
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