You haven't changed (perhaps) but I know I have and things are different because they have always been and I know, and you probably knew too that it wouldn't have worked out but we thought why not a shot and now I am devoid.
Well I have sometimes have often wished I lead the life of another someone luckier than I even though I do know full well I am to be considered lucky already but aren't we humans, and humans can't ever be satisfied can't they and sometimes we keep on wanting and wanting and wishing ourselves away.
I don't really know what's going to come out of this diarrhoea of incoherent thoughts but what did I expect anyway? Long awaited insight? An epiphany?
You know that I am proud in a way and you know that I hate feeling like this but do you know that I am feeling like this?
I do wish I could siphon off these thoughts and perhaps go into hibernation for the next millennia or so, and don't ask me what happened? or are you alright? when you do read this because I won't be able to explain anyway.
Maybe one day I'll look back and laugh at my own foolishness but I suppose it won't be soon enough.

-

Photos on friday or the weekends or smth.
haven't been reaching home before 6/7pm on weekdays for ages alr ):
Prlly will not be until the syf is over rawrrrrrr pracs are exhausting but I don't really want it to be over so soon. Bio tday was gay but after that I kept grossing people out with the photos hhaahhh cheap thrillz :D
Hair felt like plastic tday srsly I'm not exaggerating ok hairy stick said it felt like a wig argh and I conditioned it twice ystrday alr is seawater really that bad for hair D:
Fine go ahead and laugh at my pathetic hair one day it'll be chio ok just you wait ._.
Have dark eyebags/circles, chapped lips, two fricking uclers (one on my tongue somemore ughhh the other one keeps rubbing against the braces I szwear I can't speak properly), peeling finger skin thanks to practise and a crapload of h/w and revision midyear papers are two fricking weeks away!!!!!!
At least time's passing relatively fast (thought it doesn't feel so sometimes) yay 1/2 year almost gone another 1 1/2 years and I'm out of this sorry excuse of a school baby :)

You aren't who you seem to be neither am I.
X